Selinium.

So I find myself in need of a pause. 
I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because, 
of this desire to be what others want me to be. 
Which is nothing close to me..

But I'll see better when the smoke clears, when the smoke clears inside my head.
And I can listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything I've said.
All that remains me and who I am at the end of the day,
and this happens every day.. 

Every day is a battle, between what I want to know and what I don't want to figure out.