Selinium.

I still have a hard time breathing after that meeting I went to.
I can't think right and I feel faint, all the time.

I still went though, even though I felt sick and almost threw up.
I'm scared to think of what it'll feel like when I actually get started.
I haven't even begun yet, and I feel.. more empty than before.
More lifeless, hopeless. I feel like my spot in life could have come to better use.

It's not a great thing to think of when your trying to start over.
Or should I say start fresh. I don't know.

What should one say if you didn't have anything to begin with?