Selinium.

So far, keeping it together has had to be enough.

It is such a miracle

having good days like this
It is such a tragedy

my memory cannot retain it

I was taught love by loving parents
I was taught how to love by the absence of it
I was taught that love wasn't enough
That it never is

I was taught that love doesn't conquer. everything. anything
So I learned how to hide.
It is how I learned avoidance.

I feel like pouring my heart out like summer rain
but my heart is empty, and I cannot remember a time when it was not